Freaking out

After talking with Travis last night, I am so relieved that I am not the only one here freaking out a little. Okay, maybe a lot. Reality is setting in. We have 1 month before we move out of our home. Our home we have been in for exactly 4 years on our move out date. As small and as much work as this house needs, we've made it our home. Its cozy and perfect. Last night I realized we would no longer have a "home". A place to come back to. Space from one another when needed. The more I type this, the more freaked out I get. I love camping. One of the best parts about it is coming home and taking a long hot shower afterwards. Not going to happen this time around. My hope is that this doesn't feel like camping. Hence the reason we completely renovated the trailer. We want it to feel like a home. We want it to feel like our space. It will function exactly the way we need it to. I hope.

While talking to Travis, his biggest fear is the adjustment period. Our entire routine is about to change. No more school days and attempting to rush out the door. A majority of us in this household are not morning people. Do we have a set wake up time? Do we have a set bedtime? Or do we just casually go with the flow? We've always had  pretty set routine for the boys sake. Now to just chuck that out the window and chill...hmmm...
The little things will change. Shower times for the boys, our dinner and bedtime routine, school work, our work, all of it. We will be adjusting to one another adjustments. Believe me, I know this will not just be a walk in the park. I am aware that as a family of 5 and 2 large dogs, we will need all of the patience we can get.

What I've heard is it takes about 3 months. 3 months of questioning it all, wondering what the hell we've done and if we've made the biggest mistake ever. 

Although we are freaking out, the excitement of it all does outweigh that. The adventure, the unknown the plans and ideas, the people and places we will visit, the opportunity to see and go anywhere and the amount of learning the boys are going to be able to do outside of a classroom and in the world. This is why we are doing this. We are confident in our decision, but a little freaked out.